I'm the person who freaks out when I know someone is coming to visit. It's not like I can't do it, but my family has come to the understanding that if I have at least a 10 minute warning that someone's coming, I'll do my usual freak and then get on with it fine. Yesterday was a perfect example.
My daughter had gone on a hike with friends, but her and one of the others got delayed. The parents decided that when they were ready, the kids would text for them to pick them up. So, they chose to pop over for a visit. With the alarm system in place in our yard, they weren't even in the driveway before the siren went off (the dog). I looked, saw them opening the gate to the yard (we have horses to keep in), and I panicked! I didn't know what to do. It was nearly dinner time, and I don't make dinner on Sundays. Nothing was thawed, and I didn't have anything quick to make.
By the time they were down the drive, I figured I'd just offer coffee or juice. We visited a while, the kids were picked up, and then they said they should go. I then proceeded to open my big mouth and say I'd go to the store, pick up some hamburger and buns and we could have a bar-b-cue. It sounded great! Then they asked if we wanted to have it at their place. I questioned whose b-b-q was working best, knowing ours didn''t, and we proceeded to have dinner at their place (PAYBACK!!!).
It worked out great! Both families got some supplies, I made the burgers, and they had paper plates for our food. No dishes, and two families fed up!
I don't know why I panic and get anxious. I've been that way for decades now. But I'm learning to try to break through it, even when it isn't comfortable. These friends are special to us. They're going through a restructuring of families. Even when I don't think I have anything to offer people, I need to realize that sometimes just being there is enough.
Do you struggle with anxiety? Are you able to work it out? I hope that you ask for God's strength to rid you of this debilitating way of thinking. You're not alone... and God does care!
Five Good Things:
1. Friends who are willing to come to my door unannounced... they don't know what shape I'll be in, yet they are willing to "chance" a visit.
2. A b-b-q that works well.
3. An opportunity to laugh with people.
4. My hubby's health. It's soooooo much better!