Wednesday, November 04, 2009

The Waiting Game

Anyone who really knows me well would know I'm not a patient person. In fact, I like to have things all sorted out ahead of time, way ahead of time! Some may call this anxiety, some may call this trying to take God's place, some may think it wise. It has gotten me in trouble many times.

For instance, if I know some money is coming to me, I have it spent in my mind already. Three months down the road, in fact. It's virtually gone before I ever have it. This has gotten me in trouble because in the past I've tried to borrow from Paul to pay Peter, when neither of them has the money yet. I'm working on that! It's going good.

I usually like to have any special vacation planned down to when we will stop for coffee, to gas up, to get rid of the coffee, and what we are doing each day. It has worked well, but sometimes I just need to let go of the control and just let things happen. I haven't been as successful at this.

When we planned to move to Smithers we sort of had the idea that our long term plan for here would be 5 years. Well, you can see how long it's been, and it doesn't appear that this will change anytime soon either. Okay, so I was wrong, and I'm okay with being here now.

This past year ended up with some unexpected turns in our lives. I won't go into all the details, but one of them has been that my husband became ill, and has been on a medical leave since March. It has been an uphill battle dealing with Pension and Disability agencies, but ... and I will first and foremost thank God... that has not been for nothing. There were times that I didn't feel I could ever look at another piece of paper that needed filling out ever again. With the help of some wonderful people that have been placed in our lives, I was able to deal with that. Other times I felt like just giving up on the whole thing... so what if we never saw any more money? But my gut instinct was that if Tim was entitled to something, we should fight for it. So fight we did... or rather, I did.

I'd like to let you know that my man is improving, and we hope for more improvements in the future. We have wonderful Doctors taking him under their wings! We wouldn't have made it without their help and care!

Last month we got news that his Disability Pension was approved for a year (after appealing the first decision)! What a celebration! This week we found out that he has been approved for Long-Term Disability through his work(after having the Union appeal the first decision). We never knew the power of a Union, but are thankful for their help in this!

I may have not fought so hard for this if it weren't for a friend who encouraged me to keep trying, until I could try no more. Thank you V!

I'll be honest that I'm trying so hard not to worry about when the year is up. Things could change, and I must be ready for that. They could actually get better!

There are many people who have listened, prayed, and shared their experiences with us over the past year... please don't stop! I know I have made a few friendships I don't want to go without. Thank you for being there for us, and for pointing us back to Whom is in charge of everything!

A few months ago I was desperate. Now I know I'm still desperate, but I know that there is Someone who is with me and is caring for me, and is providing for me in many more ways than I ever could have dreamed.

Thank you all! I can hardly wait to see what's in store now ;-)


Anonymous said...

Hi Dawn,
God always pulls through, even if it's not in the way we expect it to happen. I'm really happy that Tim is getting better and that your family will be able to breathe a little.
Virtual hugs,

Anonymous said...

Thanks for sharing Dawn. Glad to hear things are on the mend and are finally working out in your favour. It's been a long road...